By Carol Sandford


Chapter 01


His words hurt me, but not as much as his silence. I wanted to...needed to talk things through; put logic to his reasoning and a better answer to my question.

He offered me none, just silence, and that silence cut through me like a knife.

One word and then silence. "No." That was it, no explanation, no compromise, nothing. Just, 'No.'

Was I so wrong to want something that I had craved since I was old enough to understand that I could; that it was part of who I was; that my life had no meaning if I couldn't do this?


The word sent a chill through to my soul. I still remember the shock of its impact as though it was just a moment ago. But it wasn't, it was yesterday, but it might have well had been a lifetime ago.

It would have still destroyed me.

For a thousand years I have had visions - dreams - fantasies of a tiny being, cradled against my breast, with hair as black as midnight, and eyes as blue as the sky.

Even though I was a Betazoid, the image of a child with blue eyes was as clear to me as water. I never knew why and I accepted it as destiny; that one day a man would come into my life and give me a child with blue eyes.

But that dream just got shattered into a trillion particles with his refusal, and I didn't understand why.

I'd never understand why.

Only that he, my love, my life, my Imzadi, had said, 'No.' and broken my heart.

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